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We've got this friend of ours named Maryam. Before, we used to be so close. We were best friends. Had been friends with her since the second day of Form 1 ( about 4 years ago). Knowing someone like her was one of the greatest thing that had happened in our life.She is someone whom cares a lot about us. But now, we are missing her.

Dear friend,

You transferred to another school last year. The last day we were in the same school when all of the classmates were avoiding saying farewell to you, we kept our tears deep inside. We know you will not believe if we said that our tears were falling apart that night. We hide our feelings when were in front of you that day. We embraced each other. Everyone was dropping off their tears off while we were trying as hard as we can to hide our tears. That day, you were teaching us Math in the class. We purposely said we didn't understand just because we want to spare those precious moment with you. Even you were still there beside us, we were already miss you like a thousands years.

Your writing was still there inside our books. Since you left, we rarely contact each other. We've got to see your news only through facebook. Eventhough you were only transferring a school that are only less than 800m from our school, we rarely meet. We were solitude without your presence. We saw photos of you with your new friends. Honestly, we were jealous. We hope you will not misunderstood towards our action. We are just afraid if we bother your happiness with your friends. Afraid that you have forgotten things about us. However, your happiness will always be ours too.

And when we said ‘We missed you’ We didn’t expect for you to say it back, because we knew you hadn’t. We just wanted to let you know that we had. We miss our moments together at school. We miss everything about you. We miss how we feel nothing but happiness when we hear you laugh. We miss how we have to say the word snuggle instead of cuddle around you because you don’t like that word. We miss when we go eat together, because you’re a talkative even when we were eating. We miss how, just virtue, you demand the respect of everybody you encounter. We miss how you don't take bullshit from anybody. We miss how tough you are when all people are knocking you down. We miss you bacause at the time we wrote this, it's been almost half a year since we've seen you.

I miss every single moment with you, especially when you says things make us feel we are best friends forever. You are our friend forever and we love you so much. We love when the little things you say show us how much you care about us too. We love when we joke around. We love that just being around you make us want your approval. We love how you sometimes don't know how beautiful you really are.

We wish we had the courage to tell you these things. We wish we weren’t so scared to simply ask if we can go out sometimes. We wish that the world could know how we’ve never been so sure of a feeling like this in our whole life. We hope that somehow this letter finds its way to your eyes because if it does, We're sure that you’ll know right away that this letter was written just for You, by Us.

Love, Nai and Kai

Recently, we've got a news saying she is sick. She didn't go to school last year for 2 and a half months. Her health is getting worse by day. Now, her sickness has involved her kidney/ovaries, stomach and even her uterus. How sad we are knowing this news. Its even more sadder knowing this just today. Not from your ownself. How mad we are toward our ownself. How could we let her suffer for almost half a year without us knowing. We don't blame her for not telling us. Its because we didn't even get in touched this past half year. If we could say this out loud to you, we are deeply sorry. Sorry for not being by your side when you are in this condition. But we know you are a strong person with your friends by you sides all the time. At least we know you are not alone going through all this.

She’s the girl that believes that what comes around goes around. The one that hopes for a better day. The one that won’t give up . She’s the girl that’s unlike the rest. The one that spent her days smiling, and her nights crying. She’s the girl that would love to be loved. The one that looks strong, but actually feels so weak. She’s the girl that picks herself up every time she falls. And she‘ll be okay. She really will. She’s tough…and She deserve to be happy. We will always pray for her. We know this is only Allah's tests for her. As long as He is by her side, we believe she will be strong enough to go through this. Remember, Allah only gives you what you can handle so don't give up and keep on fighting. We will always be here accompany you through our prayers.

We hope our friendship can be rebuilt again. We don't wanna lose you. We love you more than our heart could bear.

If I could give you one thing in life, I would give you the ability to see yourself through our eyes, only then would you realize how special you are to us…